Excruciating Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Jennifer Nguyen
Jennifer Nguyen

A financial analyst with over a decade of experience in global markets, specializing in portfolio management and risk assessment.